This weekend I spent two days at a conference called Storyline. Storyline is about helping people find their story and reminding them that their story is already beautiful. It is a reminder of not only how to find what your story looks like but how to help you tell that story to everyone you know.
They asked this question multiple times, “What will people miss if you don’t tell the world your story?”
This struck me the first time I heard it on Thursday and it strikes me again today.
I’ve been walking through an interesting time in my life. I’ve been doubting.
Doubting anything and everything. I’ve never doubted that Jesus was good or that He even existed but I’ve been doubting pretty much everything else.
And in the midst of all that doubt, I felt fear. I was scared. I was scared of what other people might say, I was scared of what people might think of me, and I was scared of people leaving.
And to be honest, people have thought things, said things, and left.
This time of doubt isn’t over but my fear is.
I’m done being scared of people. I’m done being scared of what people think. I’m done being scared of people leaving.
You know why? Because the people who stick around when your life gets muddy are the only ones who deserve to be around when your life (seems because it never is) clean and clear.
This time of doubt has been frustrating for me. I haven’t figured out the origin of the doubt, the purpose of the doubt, or the destination of it.
I’ve been all, “GOD WHERE IS THIS GOING AND WHY?”
Doubt is like that. It really pushes you to your limits. And unfortunately only people who have trudged through this mud can relate.
I’ve finally decided to embrace the doubt. To not only recognize it but work through it.
I’M NOT AFRAID ANYMORE.
Blind faith is not faith. I’m sorry if that offends you. But I don’t want to follow Jesus because I’ve been brainwashed to follow Jesus or because my friends follow Jesus.
I want to follow him because I love him and I trust His commands. There are a lot of people who are intimidated by this thinking. They think how can you question any of this? How dare you not think exactly like us and do things exactly the way we do?
And you know what, those people are scared too. They are scared of the unknown. They are scared of a faith that might look different from theirs.
In this season of doubting, I’ve felt intense shame and isolation. I’ve felt like I wasn’t allowed to feel anymore. I wasn’t allowed to work through anything anymore. That I was supposed to become some robot that does what people say even if I don’t agree with them.
But after this weekend, I AM FREE.
I am free to walk through this without condemnation because Jesus wasn’t about that life. He didn’t judge people based on their questions, He loved them with His answers.
You know what Jesus did? He broke bread with them, He talked to them, and He loved them.
HE LOVED THEM.
What a concept. That we can be a part of someone’s life without telling them how they should live but just by loving them.
Bob Goff said something that will resonate with me forever. He said “people don’t want to be told what to do, people want to be told who they are.”
I finally know who I am. Because I just spent 2 days with 2,000 other people who were reminded who they are.
This doesn’t mean I have all the answers but this does mean that I have a plan.
I want to love people fearlessly and recklessly.
I want people to look at me and only see grace, hope, and love.
I want people to reminded of who they are when they are with me and I want them to know that who they are is beautiful. No adding or subtracting, they are beautiful.
I want people to feel like they are enough every time we have a conversation. I want them to never feel less when they are around me.
I want to be the kind of person that always makes room for other people to feel free.
If you are doubting anything in your life – your faith, your job, your relationship, your purpose – THAT’S OKAY. Never accept the status quo as the norm. Always question. Always ask for more out of life.
You know why?
Because YOUR STORY MATTERS. You matter. You deserve to have an incredible life and sometimes that means questioning the norm and embracing the tension.
Just imagine this scenario today. What if all birds didn’t fly? What if they could but they didn’t? What if one bird wanted to fly but all of the others thought of this concept as stupid and then shamed the bird in question? What if the bird let other bird’s standard for life define theirs?
This bird, who was created to FLY, didn’t fly because of the other birds following the status quo.
We were created to fly. Go and fly, friend.
And if you need some encouragement and some hugs, I will be glad to meet you for coffee and squeeze that gorgeous neck of yours.
Be loved and free today,